I went and got acupuncture for the first time last week and while the jury is still out on if it works the one thing I did learn is that apparently I’m doing everything in my life wrong. Yup, even breathing. My shoes are wrong and I shouldn’t wear heels, I shouldn’t be doing yoga or getting on a treadmill, I hold my purse wrong, and after looking at the diet restrictions for my blood type even everything I’m eating is wrong. Let’s just say I was probably even more overwhelmed afterwards.
The other thing I learned with acupuncture is there is really no such thing as a quick fix. I think I went in with my hopes way too high thinking I was going to go one time and all my problems would be solved. Turns out, that’s not exactly how it works and I don’t even really know if it’s actually going to work. I did have a really interesting experience with the whole thing and I feel like it’s one of those things that no two people have the same experience.
I have a heart arrhythmia that causes really bad heart palpitations constantly and so for a year and a half I have dealt with it with little to no relief. I’ve tried so many things and nothing has helped so my chiropractor recommended acupuncture. I was all for it and I had heard so many good things about it. The lady that I went to is pretty old school in that she doesn’t have anyone who works for her so if she doesn’t answer you leave a message and she calls you back. She called me back eventually and I expected to just make an appointment and go in to see her. Instead, we talked on the phone for about 45 minutes while she grilled me about everything.
I also deal with pretty bad anxiety and she managed to pick up on a lot of it from just talking to me on the phone for a few minutes. I don’t know how she did it but she managed to make me see that I constantly feel the need to defend myself. Even while writing this and mentioning anxiety I was going to say, “no, the anxiety is not the cause of my arrhythmia.” I guess technically I did just say it but it was to prove a point of how defense I really do get. I have no idea how she figured that out about me but she did and she was right. She also picked up on a lot of other bad habits that I have when it comes to driving myself crazy and worrying about everything.
I went in to the clinic the next morning and like I said I was totally of the mindset that I was going to feel loads better after just one session. I thought “surely if she can figure all that out there really has to be something here.” We talked some more and eventually she got around to actually sticking needles in me. I have been poked and prodded so many times over the past year and a half that the needles are not a problem for me. What I wasn’t expecting though was actually feeling some weird sensations where the needles were. Which, to be fair, makes sense because there are needles being stuck inside you but it felt like it was more than that.
She didn’t put near as many as I thought she would and considering I went there for heart palpitations I was surprised that she only put needles in my arms and legs. I know there’s a method to the madness but I was pretty surprised by that. I kept the needles in for about 20 minutes and that was it. I was on my way hoping I would feel better. I didn’t.
She had me go back the next morning but when I went back she literally just helped me with my breathing because she was right in that, even for all the yoga that I do, my breathing is very shallow. I notice it a lot but sometimes it’s hard to have to actively focus on breathing when you’re just going about your life. I do know how much focusing on your breath does help though and so I do think I needed to be reminded of that. Again though, I didn’t feel any better really. A little calmer which is always good but I could still feel my heart pounding away.
My quick fix turned out to not be quite that and it’s hard to tell if acupuncture is something I’ll continue with. I’ll give it a go one more time I think because I do believe there is something to it but maybe it doesn’t work for every one. I also don’t know how much to buy into the whole “don’t do this” stuff. Being a human is hard. Being a human and having to try extra hard to feel normal is quite the task but then you start putting all of these restrictions on your self and makes everything that much harder. If it’s going to help though and it’s better for you is it worth it? Is it worth it to not do any kind of balancing poses in yoga or to not eat ice cream when you want it? I really don’t know. I like to think that balance is the best way to go about things. That’s probably wrong though. I mean I don’t even know how to breathe properly so it’s probably not really a good idea to listen to me.